a recipe enough to kill the pain....away~

ingredients to die to my death-

1 gallon of moonshine

1 gallon of tequila

1 gallon of liquid-x

1 pound of heroin

It might kill me or it might make me black-out or be passed-out for several days-

I could even die to my death_____ and no one would know what happened to me,

but it is enough for me per-say....just too kill the pain away!

but it seems if no one cared for this recipe for a terrible disaster to happen~

maybe because no one knew how much I am suffering from the pain, the pain that takes my life away

the pain that kills me from inside and outside it stabs me like a knife

sharp as a razor blade. it makes my wounds bleed to death like my blood leeks from my

cuts and scars but no one cared because no one knew how much it was hurting me until I'm gone forever!

maybe if people knew how much pain I am in they would care; maybe they would not: and even maybe help me feel better; and

to take away that pain so I can live again they might be able to solve my problems so I can regenerate

that pain so I can live again they might be able to solve my problems so I can regenerate and rejuvenate to start off fresh have a new

outlook on my life and be happy again. there information they give me might not be enough and it didn't work because it still dose 

hurt.....it kills me till I'm done with and gone never to be seen again my ashes and

..............just ashes........blowing in the wind like a scattered pile of

leaves blowing wisp fully softly in the wind forever in time- no sprit or soul of me left to remember me with /I cover my face with a

mask of disguise that's shows I'm in all reality I'm really sad on the inside behind the mask that's what

I am, I'm sad behind this mask I cover my true feelings and emotions from the world~ so no one really knows how I really do

feel throughout my body and mind my heart aches with pain but maybe this recipe will kill the pain, and make it go way forever

infinity so I can live the life I want to live in the pursuit of happiness forever

in time with the equation of love+peace=harmony in throughout this world

and never have to worry again for all man kind to come be born in this world!

F.I.N. for me forever in name for a am human/mortal nothing more nothing less unless it

changes into something more. someone/something like me.